Accepting change is necessary for coping with chronic pain

March 5, 2018

In 2001, I developed chronic pain from a neurological movement disorder called dystonia. My life before and after dystonia are as different as night and day. I went from a very active lifestyle to one that was extremely sedentary. It was a total mind bender. For most of my life, I played organized and leisurely sports all year round. My two main sports were golf and baseball. I could easily walk 18 holes several times a week and some days I played 27 holes. I played baseball from a young age all the way through college, practicing or playing games every day of the week. I loved it and could never get enough.

I also never passed up the opportunity to swim, bike, play tennis, racquetball, basketball, soccer, or ultimate Frisbee, to name just a few of my favorite activities. In the mid 90’s, I trained to be a field goal kicker in the NFL. Along with working full time, I was training twice a day until a hip injury ended that dream. I then studied karate for several years and earned a brown belt. I also traveled and had an active social life. Long story short, I never sat idle for long.

When dystonia prevented me from living my active life, it was a major shock to my psyche. I was not only riddled with pain, I gained 150 pounds from my sedentary, unhealthy lifestyle. I also fell deep into depression and suffered with intense anxiety where it was hard to even leave the house.

For the first 7 years I was miserable. I had a lot of negative self-talk about how I could no longer do the things I loved so much. I characterized dystonia as an evil intruder that “ruined my life.” I was deeply frustrated, which caused a lot of anger and bitterness. This made my dystonia worse because negative emotions increase stress which increase muscle tension and pain. I had to shift my way of thinking if I wanted to live a happier and healthier life.

It was hard work, but I eventually came to understand that change is a natural part of life. Just ask any aging person about their former abilities compared to their current abilities. Healthy aging requires accepting change, just as healthy coping with dystonia, chronic pain, or any other limiting health condition requires accepting change.

Understanding that certain things do not last a lifetime, I thought of all the great times I had playing baseball and golf (and other sports), said thank you for all those times, and let them go. I had to say goodbye. I had to release the past so I could live in the present and focus my energy on the new direction my life was heading. I was lucky to have 30 years of enjoyment from those things. I could have been far less fortunate and been sick my whole life and not be able to do any of it. How can I be anything but grateful when there are so many people who never had the same opportunities?

Over the years I have learned many things to help manage my symptoms (I also lost the 150 pounds I gained) but I still have pain, muscle spasms, and other symptoms of dystonia. They are just not as severe as they once were. One of the biggest keys for helping me better accept my new and different life is that I stopped caring so much that I had something “wrong” with me. This mindset is my biggest ally. It reduces stress and keeps my mind and body calmer.

I would like to say that I freely do activities with ease, but that is not always the case. There are days when things are far too uncomfortable. Therefore, I live my life within the boundaries of my abilities and accept that I can’t always do everything I want. If I don’t accept this reality, I will mentally torture myself when I miss out on things. When I am able to do more, I enjoy the heck out of myself!

I have finally learned to not take feeling well, or even “just okay”, for granted. Even more helpful is doing things when I don’t feel my best. I used to think I had to feel a certain way to enjoy life, so I waited around until I felt well enough. How silly of me. I could still do some things even if it was uncomfortable. I was just so caught up in anger and depression about how much dystonia and pain took from my life, rather than embracing what I could still do.

We all need to grieve, but we can’t let it last forever. To be happy, we can’t continue to dwell on what once was. All we have is the present moment so that is where our attention needs to be. When we focus on the abilities we have now, acceptance follows, giving us greater peace of mind and a happier life.

Tom Seaman is a Certified Professional Life Coach in the area of health and wellness, and author of the book, Diagnosis Dystonia: Navigating the Journey. He is also a motivational speaker, chronic pain and dystonia awareness advocate, health blogger, and volunteers for the Dystonia Medical Research Foundation (DMRF) as a support group leader, for WEGO Health as a patient expert panelist, and is a member and writer for the Chronic Illness Bloggers network. To learn more about Tom, subscribe to his free health newsletter, and get a copy of his book, visit Follow him on Twitter @Dystoniabook1 and Instagram


4 responses to “Accepting change is necessary for coping with chronic pain”

  1. Karen Greenslate says:

    Tom, this little article is concise, but so right on. We love someone who has dystonia, and so we want to learn all we can to be supportive, understanding and helpful. What you point out applies to all of us, in terms of letting go of some things as life moves on. Thanks, Tom.

    • Tom Seaman says:

      Thank you, Karen. I appreciate it very much. I also appreciate how you said that this is applicable to all of us, as the person living with dystonia is not the only one who is struggling. It impacts everyone involved and each of us needs support and guidance in managing this difficult situation. It is something we to often forget. Thank you!

  2. wolfpuppi says:

    Beautifully put, Tom. As a fellow Dystonia patient, I relate 100% to the sentiments shared. The losses must be grieved, as they are real and the emotional pain is as valid as the physical pain. But to live there would be another loss just as great! Thank you for being such and incredible friend and inspiration and helping me to move forward in life with Dystonia and to do what I CAN do every single day, nevermind what I can not do! This book is an amazing book for helping others to understand our misunderstood condition and for helping those with Dystonia and other chronic conditions to cope on a day to day basis. My admiration and gratitude for your heart’s work is immeasurable.

    • Tom Seaman says:

      Thank you very much and thank you for everything you said. You have been a wonderful friend and huge support for me, and I couldn’t be more grateful!

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